Poem: Which Path Do I Take? (From the Archives)

Which Path Do I Take?

Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace and to give you an expected end."

 

Tired of going back to Egypt knowing God delivered me from there and I'm on the road to my promised land. God keeps telling me to let him drive, let him take the wheel so, I let him but then I grab the wheel back and attempt to do a U turn but his grip over my hands jerks the wheel right back when I begin to turn the wheel back to the place where I came from.

 

I let God take the wheel and continue to drive but then I tell him take the nearest exit because this road is just a little too long. As we continue driving I see an exit sign labeled fornication, lust and adultery, another labeled lying, backbiting, and gossiping and another with thoughts of suicide, thoughts of killing, hurting others. Above each sign is a picture of alcohol, a picture of a boy, and a picture of weed. Which exit do I take? Maybe I’ll just try them all until I get to my destination.

 

I decide  to take the first exit after God says no and I am left with emptiness, loneliness, a soul tie and then another life. I turn to look at the driver’s seat and realize God is no longer there because he handed me over to the very thing that he tried to keep me from. I turn to grab the wheel and stop but then I realized I’ve crashed into a wall and am not wounded.

 

I wake up in a mental hospital with scars and pain. And my doctor Abba walks in disappointed because I refused to take the prescription he gave me the last time I took the same exit. He says to me, for the same thing over and over again? When will you realize you must abide to the prescription I gave you? Me, speechless, looking at what I’ve done to myself when all I had to do was follow through on the prescription I was recently given. Once again he writes me the prescription “Follow my commands, stop taking the nearest exit and let me lead you to your destination.” The same prescription he gave me before but this time he wrote STAT on it! Attached to it was a note that said, “If you would just trust the one writing your prescription since I have the requirements to keep you from crashing into the same wall, you would be better off. Trust your provider and stay on the road to your destination or, all your exits will lead to destruction.”

 

I now pose the question: Will you keep taking your own exits or will you follow the road, the way that your designated driver is taking you?

 

-Tamika